The Waiting Game
The summer that followed my A-Levels felt long, especially since it was the time that filled the gap between sitting my exams and actually finding out my results. Fortunately, I had filled the wait with a few holidays, conferences and days out with family and friends. Plus, I had two ways to look at it; one way, was to sit twiddling my thumbs, counting the days whilst getting more and more nervous. Another, was to distract myself whilst remembering that I couldn’t do any more for my results now so I should just focus on enjoying my long summer break.
So I tried to do exactly that, distract myself. I can sit here now and tell you it wasn’t easy, but it was worth it. The more I trust God in the unknown, the stronger our relationship becomes. You know that phrase, “through thick and thin”? I want to be able to say that about me and Jesus. What makes this process so beautiful is that you begin to see the fruit of allowing God to be in control, but you have to have the patience to wait for it. The unknown is like the seed in ground: it’s dark, it’s boring, it’s annoying, it’s hard to breathe, you can’t see anything. But eventually the tree that grows reaches heights, the flowers that open are colourful, and the roots are strong. This is how God longs to form us, as ambitious, vibrant, faithful children.
Results day came round faster than I expected, and I was ready to face whatever was written on my sheet. I knew that regardless of my grades, the only thing that defined me was my identity in Christ. Any problem I faced with my results, I would face with Him.